I take everything back. I couldn’t stand those horrible things I have posted on my last blog entry. I really have this habit of trying to push thoughts that I actually negate by posting a bunch of gibberish words on my blog.
I cannot feign hate on the person I have already forgiven — even if my forgiveness was never asked for.
What the hell was I thinking wishing her the worst when she is already suffering enough (I assume)? Just because I am happy with my life doesn’t mean I will wish those who have hurt me the worst. I was not raised that way. Besides, it is not a classy way to do it.
I want to be bitchy, but I really am not. I am harmless because I am mostly ruled by compassion (or sorge according to Heidegger). That’s the thing with us humans, we have this ability to feel for other human beings. We feel their pain even if we are not the ones who are experiencing it.
I try to convince myself that I will have the last laugh, but how can you laugh at other people’s misfortunes and sufferings? That’s just inhumane to do so.